Sunday, February 17, 2008

Sunday Lessons

I've recently been released from serving in the nursery and have had to deal with going back into RS and SS where you just sit and listen. I've loved working in the nursery, tending to the little ones, teaching a simple lesson, singing simple songs about the gospel and rocking them as needed. It seemed that just sitting in a class and listening to a lesson wasn't going to cut it with me. However, I still went. Today was my second time. I tried to prepare myself for the RS lesson hoping that would help me. I read the lesson and studied the scriptures. I was even impressed with a thought about a "not so important" part of the lesson.
We studied in the Teachings of the Presidents - Jospeh Smith manual and it talks about Cain not making a blood sacrifice but instead offering up the "fruit of the ground". It first appeared to me that Cain had the cards stacked against him. Abel had charge over the flocks and Cain had charge of the crops as I understood it. So, Abel offered up from his works and Cain offered up from his. However, the lesson brought out the fact that the offerings were to be blood offerings in similitude of the offering of the Savior. I couldn't understand why the Lord would set Cain up with the crops and then reject his offering ~ unless, Cain could have offered up a blood sacrifice and choose to offer another sacrifice in mockery of the Lord. Sort of,"If this isn't good enough for you, so what!"
It made me wonder how often I say, "I'm doing my best" when really I'm doing what comes easiest for me. Nursery was easy for me. RS isn't. What kind of sacrifice am I offering. What I want or what the Lord wants? An interesting idea, uh!

Also, while "sitting and listening" to the lesson I was prompted to remember a blessing that I was given before most of my children were born. I was told that I would always know when one of them was in trouble. I took great comfort in that knowledge because one of the things I dreaded most was having one of my children need help and me not even know.

Now, most of my children are out of my house and seldom do I know what's really going on in the their lives. Except, sometimes the Spirit still prompts me, "So and so, is having a hard time." Or, "So and so is struggling." I still may not know what the "hard time" or the "struggle" is about but I don't need to know that. I do however, say a prayer for that child and keep that prayer in my heart. I know that the Lord blesses us as He sees best and that He is aware of each of us. And I appreciate the Lord keeping me aware of my children and of their needs so I can pray for them if nothing else.

In Sunday School the teacher asked if anyone had ever wondered "why" they could pray for something to get better and yet it still gets worse. As the class made comments about the "why" I raised my hand and said that I didn't know "why" that would happened but that I trusted that the Lord had a plan in place and if just trusted Him, all would work out the best way possible. She said something to the effect of "What faith." As I thought on that later, I realized it wasn't just faith. I thought, "If you just knew my Father." He has always been there especially when things are the hardest. Sometimes I wouldn't let Him in and that's when it was the darkest, but other times, He would hold me in His arms while I cried and I knew He cried with me. Things are the way they are for a reason and great blessings come because of it. We grow closer to our Father and we feel of His love for us as we work out our mortal lives.

Now this one is the hard one. Ever since I started working I've paid my tithing without exception. I never really minded paying it because I guess I just knew I should. But, as I took on more and more responsibility for the family finances I paid only on what I received. Meaning, I paid on my net not on my gross. I reasoned that I needed every extra penny to get through that month and that I was sure the Lord realized this as well. I never felt bad about it and I can honestly say that I knew in my heart I had paid an "honest tithe". Lately, things have been quite tight and I am finding it hard to stretch what I have to meet the needs. I long to be out of debt personally and have the money to help family as I can. So, I've been applying to work evenings and weekend jobs. I've been confident that something will come along to get me over the hump and help me pay off my debt.

Then today in Sacrament Meeting the speaker said something about paying our tithing. I can't tell you exactly what he said because I stopped listening to him and listened to the voice within tell me that "if I would pay on the gross instead of on the net, I would have what I need." Ok, that sounds good doesn't it, but in reality it means if I do that then I have less of what I already have and there is a larger gap. There wasn't even a promise of an extra job. So, how do I do this? I get paid on Wednesday and next Sunday I'm going to pay on my gross. I don't know how I'll pay the rest of the bills but we'll see. Keep me in your prayers and I'll let you know how it goes.

I've gone on so long today. I guess when I don't think I'm going to learn anything that's when the Lord laughs and says, "We'll see about that."

Oops, I goofed when I did the last Tall and Short blog "Standing Strong". It was supposed to be on this site, but look, I'm getting better. :-)

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

President Hinckley and Glen Beck

With the passing of President Hinckley there have been many tributes. Here is one that I appreciate. Glen Beck, who is a recovering alcholic and a great commentator, shares his feelings about President Hinckley. Perhaps you've seen it, perhaps you'd like to see it again.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Our Dear President Hinckley

February 2, 2008 ~ Today has been a sad but wonderful day. I was able to sit with Will and Jenni and watch the funeral services for our dearly beloved President Hinckley. He was an outstanding Prophet who has inspired us for many years. I often think about a comment he made several years ago and after many years of service in the First Presidency. It was during one of his Conference talks when he said he would love to sit in the rocker on his front porch and watch the sunsets as he rocked, but that the Lord had called him to a work of service and that is what he would commit himself to do. I can sometimes relate to a wishing for a few hours of rocking on the porch and although I rock much more than President Hinckley ever did, I admire his desire and his willingness to put off the restful, maybe selfish things in life to serve the Church and the members of it with wholeness of strength. We will miss him dearly and remember him always.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Up Lift My Soul

I am excited to start this new blog and to share some more personal and hopefully inspiring thoughts with you. Our Church has recently encouraged us to use our technology to share our beliefs with others. Since most of the people who view my blog are family and close friends you will already know much about our church and I am usually the one learning from you. However, I often come across quotes or thoughts that I really appreciate. Sometimes I can even relate to it enough to bear testimony of it. And, there are many, many times I am given an inspiration from the Lord that I would love to share. That's why I'm starting this site. Jenni is helping me get it set up so that you can go to this site right from my blog if you want to read something along those lines. I hope that in this way I'll be able to share my testimony and inspiring thoughts with those I love. If you have any ideas about this, please let me know. I'd love to hear what you think about it. I will also probably sign "Mom" as I close out these posts. On this one I just want to thank so many of you for helping me with this desire. You are most often my inspiration!! I love you all, Mom